I was nearly (?) raped when I was thirteen by a group of men in India. I remember that their hands, the dirt of the bathroom floor, and the fact that they weren't Indian-looking (Probably from Nepal or Northeast India). I remember (And still have) the shirt I was wearing on that day. Unfortunately, my tights were shredded. I don't remember their faces but I remember how their breath smelled. I always said I could identify these guys based off of their hands. I remember the hands holding me down.

When you are that young, you go into survival mode. You will block things out. However, your brain remembers. You just shouldn't. Take care of yourself OP. It is hard to forget those things.