I may have to try this. I think it’s a great idea. Just give up on these thoughts and work on myself for a while. I’m already to the point where I’ve lost the confidence to even try and initiate anymore so I kind of pathetically wait and hope he’ll want me. It would take me hours to get up the nerve to try. Worked one time in 3 years with trying about every 2-3 weeks. I haven’t tried to initiate for the last 5 years. Can’t take the rejection hits anymore.That in itself has really done a number on my confidence. It’s created a pretty horrible inner dialogue. No one should be talked to the way I talk to myself. Can’t even pass a mirror without insulting myself. What would I really be missing? Waiting and hoping? Plus maybe it will help build ME back up. Maybe see some sort of return on my efforts. Thanks for the inspiration! On the gym buddy hunt