It will take time. I’ve been with my boyfriend for 8 months and I’m still hurt by 2 toxic relationships. One was 3 years ago, and the other was 2. There have been many times where I jeopardized my relationship with my boyfriend because of my constant jealousy, overthinking, insecurities, etc. One thing I learned is that you sadly can’t control somebody or their actions. However, you can’t always love with an empty heart and a mindset of “I’m going to get cheated on or played again”. You might’ve dealt with some shitty people, and that’s okay. You need to push those people in the past as much as you can and realize that he wants you for a reason and if he’s treating you how you’d like to be treated then that’s all that matters. Take time opening up. If he rushes you to express yourself and love him, he’s only looking for the wrong things hun. Good luck