How do I stop myself from cutting/self hate

I have! Oddly enough the last 2 I partially connected with moved onto different locations so I’m onto new one again. I did counseling 4 days a week. Idk what it is. I’ve been on multiple anti depressants and anti anxiety pills and hate it. Hate medication. I mainly just try to smoke weed and not put myself in uncomfortable situations but god forbid life is full of surprises and when I’m just chillin shit comes along and i just lose it and can’t control myself. It’s never been this bad but I had my first crazy fit in public the other day and I went to my therapist with it and got nothing from them. I used to be able to Keep it private. Maybe go in room and yell or bitch out loud or something but I can’t control it anymore the last 2-3 weeks

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