I can answer, but please don't think I am bragging, or showing off. You cannot say you are attractive on the internet without being downvoted to hell, but just hear me out first.

As a guy who gets attention daily, it honestly isn't all that great.

Eyes are always on you. It's like being paranoid. Sometimes it is a real confidence booster, but other days when I am sleep deprived and such, I just want to blend in and have no one look at me so I can just read or do my work in peace. But someone is almost always looking, smiling at me, or flirting and I can't tell who is hitting on me or who is just a nice person anymore. It sucks. It doesn't help that I now instinctively flirt with basically anyone. And last week I ruined a good friendship by accidentally getting involved with a good friend of mine, whom I sit next to tomorrow morning and who I am dreading to see. When we were friends, the class thought we were a couple because the girl was very flirtatious towards me, and when they heard I told her we should stay friends because I made a mistake, it was like I was the bad guy on a sitcom.

I get so anxious about every little move that I make because chances are, someone will see. Every guy either emulates you or loathes you, simply because of the way I look. I try to be as nice as possible to break the stereotype people expect of me. I attract the wrong girls. I like good girls. I have been with most bad girls because that's just who goes for me. The girls' frequently assume I'm "playing them" if I express my real feelings for them. They think I only want sex, but I don't, and it causes me to sabotage any potential relationship before anything happens to spare me getting my hopes dropped on the floor.

It's a little ironic, because all of this trying at being a good person is frustrating me and I will be the person I despise because I feel I have no other option. I'll have sex with the girls that just want sex from me, but it doesn't have meaning. In a few years I'll never remember the girls' names. And that's just it. I want to be romantic. I want lovers of passion, but I can only get that in countries like Italy which are less sexually restricted. The girls' there know you want sex, but also want love, and that is how it should be. Also, everyone is attractive there, so I feel like I can actually fight for a girl for once.

I hate texting, I hate Instagram, I hate Facebook. What ever happened to throwing rocks at a girls' window to sneak you inside? The only close thing I have is sneaking into a girls' dorm at night. Everything in my life is automatically about sex. It sounds great but it is just making me a emotionless shell. I've loved one women, I believe, land I will never love again because I can't go through the bullshit again. She was admittedly a little out of my league from an outsiders perspective, but it didn't matter because I loved her for who she was. But, we had arguments over bullshit like she thought I was cheating on her because "why would a guy like that go for a girl like her?" Because I fucking loved you for who you are and I still do.

So basically, the grass may look greener on the other side, but it's just because it rains more on that side.