I first want to thank you for being so casual.

It helps...

A lot...

Second, I don't go to the gym because first off, I'd have no clue what I'm doing, as I never even had P.E. in HS, due to marching band taking a slot, and also, I'm embarassed.

Now, I know your counter is probably "Everyone is there for the same reason." so I'm not saying I won't go, I'm just hesitant. Heck, I might just work out solo, no gym, just run, lift, and all that jazz at home.

I never applied the "outcast" label to myself. The definition of outcast is "a person who has been rejected by society or a social group". This just so happens to fit me. Now, like you said, High School is bullshit, so this'll probably change.

The whole average age for losing my virginity thing isn't my problem, it's the average dating age. I'm past that. I've never been on a date. Not ONCE.

You said you guarantee I don't look that bad, and attraction resides more n personality for us. Well, I'm hygienic, I don't dress like a 75 year old (heh), I have perfect teeth, thus following, a pretty okay smile, and I have a pretty okay sense of humor.

I worry my unattractiveness physically overshadows that.

I'm pale, lanky, have bad acne, ALREADY have a receding hairline (which REALLY hurts my image), and all around am not very pleasant to look at.

I'll try to improve this as best I can, but man...

Alcohol...

I just don't like the idea of not being FULLY myself. I have a hard time being forced to sleep for medical shit, let alone being loopy.

I just get very anxious at the concept. Granted, I'm 17, but still, that kind of shit sticks most of the time.

I know I'm just defending blindly, and I'm a naive 17 year old, but I still don't like feeling so sucky, especially when 85% of the people around me are not like this. At least, to this extent.