This is practically me. My life is wonderful (and so I also feel shitty and super guilty for feeling the way I do). Yet, I think about suicide (no plans) every day. I think it’s the constant anxiety that one day all the wonderful aspects of my life could be taken away in an instant (my fantastic spouse, my job, my health, the health of a loved one etc.).

But my main question: is it not normal to think about suicide with no actual plans to do it? Like, doesn’t everyone have these thoughts on occasion?

I think I would like to control how I go. I wish there was a peaceful, painless way to end your life when you feel you’re done, finished living your life.