It was just a frustrating week. I'm in Florida, and I was just getting back into my regular schedule after our power was out for 5 days. I found out one of my best friend is moving across the country and she might have been the only person locally I could talk to.

And my family situation is complicated. I live with my parents at the moment, and they're raising my 9 year old niece. My brother just got out of prison, and his ex girlfriend can't afford to raise her own daughter. This ex girlfriend recently had another baby, with a different guy. Last weekend, the ex girlfriend's mom was at my parents house babysitting this new baby for a few days.

I wasn't doing well and really wanted some time alone, and having this woman I barely knew and a baby around the house really set me off. I'm pretty resentful of this other family that his insinuated their way into my family and take advantage of my parents a lot.

I feel like I've basically lost my parents because they are, understandably, wrapped up in caring for my niece, and making sure my brother is ok. (He recently got out of rehab. again.)

My family doesn't have a lot of time to care about me and they generally get annoyed at me for being depressed. They are supportive to a point, but they get easily frustrated at me. I can't blame them, they have a lot going on.

I wish I could support myself, but I can't right now, and I feel incredibly guilty about that.

My mom said last night that she and I can't have this "close kind of mother daughter relationship" anymore, when I tried to talk to her about my depression. She got frustrated that we were having this conversation "again." She doesn't understand that depression is cyclical and blames it on pms - in a way that is very demeaning.

I don't know if I'm being manipulative or she is. I don't think she means harm intentionally, I just think she is spread too thin with other things to care properly.

She has said before that now that I'm older she's "not my mother anymore. we're too adults now."

and... that's super painful and makes no sense? To be fair, she and I were never close. If I wasn't single right now or had more close friends, I wouldn't be talking to her about this sort of thing at all.

i've just isolated myself so much that I haven't really got anyone else left to talk to, at least, no one I want to bother with this stuff.

it's hard enough for me to think about being social, without being afraid that people are judging me for "still" being depressed.