I have never felt suicidal, so I kinda feel like a jerk for even posting anything, but I thought that maybe what I had to say could help. It may not help, but I figured I could at least try.Also I. Want you to know that I care about your life (along. With anyone else who responded to your comment). We all think you are important enough to take time out of our day and post something, in hopes of, changing your mind. I don't know you, but I can tell you you are worth something. I know this because I know that if the situation were reversed, you would tell me the same thing. You don't know who I am or what I have done or do, but it doesn.'t matter, because no matter what kind of person I am, you know I matter. You mattered enough to me for me to make a reddit profile.please don't kill yourself. I may be way off, but I think you made this post in hopes that someone will say something or give you some advice, that will make it to where you don' t have to kill yourself. I think that is how you see things, it is not that you want to kill yourself, you just can't deal with all this crap anymore. You are trying to do the right thing, you are trying to seek help, and trying to deal with these feeling in some other way other then suicide.I think the problem you are facing is that you don't know how to start to fix these problems and make them go away. Don't give up on trying to find a solution. If you can't find a solution, then try to find someone who can. Like a church pastor, or counselor. Don' t feel ashamed to tell them. Who cares if you are feeling suicidal, the important thing is that you are trying to get help, people will respect you for that, for not just giving up and taking your life, but fighting through the pain. That means that you are strong. If it embarassses you to seek help explain it to your doctor like this " I am feeling suicidal, but I don't want to kill my self, I want to find a way to get better." Also I wanted to give you a heads up, that more likely then not doctors will give you some medications, and send you on your way or referr you to s psychologist.you probably want to seek help outside of a doctor, like a school counslor ( although I bet the medicine will help.) I don't know what your like, but I would want someone to show they care about me, and I wouldn' t get that from a doctor. I hope this helps and that I did not make you feel like I didn' t understand where you were coming from.