I'm not sure why a doctor would tell a early 20s man that he was infertile.. (that doesn't pass the smell test). I did want to point out that you stated that you felt like you "couldn't be a good mom while it lasts" you have already accepted that you are a mother and you are carrying a child.. that being said and how many times you've stated "HURT" in your post I wanted you to really know there's a third option that may still have some pain but not FOREVER pain. I have 2 cousins that were adopted INTO my extended family... and they've been raised in great families and don't have a need that isn't attainable. One is 48 the other is 27, they've both met their bioparents just over the last 5 years and the reuniting has been good too. Both of my children were unplanned... both are incredible people.. Bless you in whatever you decide.. whatever hurts your heart the least..