I am currently stuck in between a rock and a hard place. I am a sixteen year old girl and things are going downhill fast. I went to girl's camp for a week this summer and found some really great and nonjudgmental people to hang out with. One of those people was a girl I had had feelings for for a long time. To make a long story short, we kissed. My dad was helping out at girl's camp and he saw that I did not bear my testimony.

When we got back home, my parents called me over for a meeting and interrogated me about my beliefs. I told them the truth and they said that we would work through my "faith crisis" together. Fast forward to last night, my parents took away my phone and then had me open it up in front of them. They did not find anything incriminating but still asked loads of questions. They claimed that lots of people had been telling them things about me and that I no longer had light in my eyes. They asked why I was doubting and when it had began.

I told them that I began doubting when I had tried to be perfect for a year at the age of 14 and none of the promises had been followed through with. My mom told me that it may take five years and I explained that I felt as though I could convince myself that any religion was true if I engrossed myself in it for five years. I explained all of the issues I had with JS and BY and plenty of other church policies. They said that those are only peripheral things and that I need to focus on the doctrine. I told them that alot of the doctrine made me upset and that what was and wasn't doctrine is confusing.

My dad was friends with one of the guys from Infants on Thrones. He said that he had read rough stone rolling and was bothered by it but that it didn't shake his spirit because of his strong testimony. He claimed that atheism makes people self absorbed and less willing to serve. They are loading me up with church material now.

I know that I don't want to go back to the church. How do I tell my parents about how I feel? What issues aren't peripheral problems? How do I deal with all the pressure? How do I get people to stop talking about me? How do I convince my parents that I am not depressed? How do I make them understand that I am okay with the idea of there being no eternity? How do I question their belief that life is meaningless without God? Please help me.

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