You know what is funny about the whole hs is suffering ? It’s only getting better afterwards. I’ve spend most of my hs days with friends, no relationships and nothing to pursue but eventually with time it came naturally and now nearly a year after graduation I can say it gets better because you get out of that idea of popular or unpopular. It’s just an idea we create in school because we only know this perspective of life yet. The so called popular people will keep on living their lives and so will you. A couple of weeks after graduation you won’t be thinking about those guys, because they won’t be around and won’t matter to you at all. And about love and relationships, we as individuals will always be the harshest on our looks. I can tell myself daily how ugly I am until some people objectively will say I look fairly good. The point is you should embrace who you’re or work towards being a better you (I hate saying this because it plays into this whole weird masculinity movement but my body confidence got better after starting gym because I had a routine and I felt proud of myself for doing something meaningful for myself). At last about love. We all want to have someone around we can cherish, we can talk to and show affection to but it’s not always coming at the same pace. Some people meet their soul mate at HS while others in college or later through work, or dating etc… The point is I believe your time will come but maybe you should focus on yourself first to reach two goals I would subjectively announce since I don’t know more about you then the paragraph: 1. Learn to love yourself be that by exploding who you are (there are two images of ourselves. Who we believe we are most of the times and who we really are) or by working out and getting a routine (the first step also takes care not consideration stuff like hobbies) (I for example learned I love cooking, I’m kind of into gardening and Archery is really really cool) 2. Learn to accept and embrace being alone. You know there is the difference between being alone (the state) and being lonely (the feeling) you probably know both well but something I came to understand is that I cannot always have people around me, I will be alone at times and I could feel lonely sometimes but what really helps is doing my best when I am alone to at least be there for myself and not let myself get engulfed by that feeling. When I am alone I send people I haven’t heard of in while some long long paragraphs or voice notes to see how they are or update how I am. I cook for tomorrow and try to innovate my cooking skills, I draw and or write ✍️, I read, I study and yet sometimes I just lie down and fell bad. You see there is a balance between trying to better yourself and accepting sometimes you’re simply not okay. To avoid just running away from my emotions I also just let loose and feel like shit because I know that just acting like I am always okay will not be a long term solution.

I hope this paragraph was somehow useful and not offending