people believe they're doing you a favor by not 'enabling' you here, but you are in treatment, and you seem to be working on your own issue. the problem people really see here is your lack of self-awareness of how..it is sad but people are not going to cater to you, yes he was a jackass but..unfortunately your disorder is one someone can't understand simply. I relate, too much, I don't have a phobia like that but I do have a mental illness that people do not really understand nor show compassion for. I have stopped expecting kindness and acceptance from people, yes, it's sad and fucked up but it's just the way it is.

you're going to have to accept that you are really ill, and act accordingly. that means, maybe...don't tell people you don't trust like your boss in the future. I think your true mistake was telling too many people. because yes, you have to see how bizarre that sounds to people

even in this thread, people don't give a fuck and hardly understand and you feel attacked. I get that..every single time I talk about or try to explain my illness. and people will throw advice at me, that I've already tried.

sometimes we have issues that are far more severe than people can understand. that it can not be so easily overcome but

I don't know, people are telling you you're screwed here, and unfortunately it is true. of course, from your perspective, what he did was egregious and awful, but from most people's perspectives it isn't.

maybe you shouldn't be working at the job you're working at.

please know that if you're surrounded by people who do not respect your mental and physical wellbeing, then they do not respect you as a person and it is detrimental to your wellbeing.

the hard part is...I don't know..it is very common and socially acceptable for there to be a HUGE stigma surrounding issues such as yours (and mine, though in a different way), and that's not going to change any time soon. so you kind of have to bitterly accept that and move forward :( and maybe hopefully find an environment where you are respected.

you seem really sweet and understanding here and I wish you all the best. he did create a hostile work environment but he probably doesn't realize it. it's terrible but even if there's proof of your phobia as in you weeping hysterically or having a panic attack, he will probably think you're being 'dramatic' and belittle your illness in his mind.

I'm basically telling you: it's fucked up, but people will not understand..no matter how much you try to convey what your reality is like. from the outside, it simply doesn't make rational sense to people. which makes sense, because our disorders are often irrational.

I don't know, I'm babbling. I don't think there's a lot you can do in this situation, but I wish you could remove yourself or just be in a better environment somehow. if you ever need to talk or anything, I'm here (a random stranger..to talk to, I know it's not much)