It's still difficult to talk about, I dated this girl in college who ruined my life. She lied, manipulated me, cheated on me, used me for what little money I had, and had a great way of making everything my fault. I couldn't be upset, if I got upset with her she would turn it back around on me. I thought I loved this girl and I thought she loved me but it was nothing but lies and bullshit. We'd break up and get back together in a couple days. Once when we were "broken up" I went to her apartment (we had keys to eachothers and she was in the process of moving to mine in the same complex) I saw some guy just start to get on top of her. The words out of her mouth? "Are you fucking serious?" She was pissed at me. She had me so emotionally twisted up I started self harming.After I finally had enough, I found out a lot more that was kept from me. She had sex with my neighbors, my roommate, and countless other people while we were together. The final straw was around christmas. We had a mutual friend who needed a ride home (about 3 hrs away) She called me saying that she didn't feel well and didn't want to drive. I told her I'd be happy to come get her and drive her and her friend home, then we could spend the weekend at our apartment. She got pissed at me saying she didn't feel well. I drove up to her place to make sure she was ok. When we're talking in the driveway (she seems fine btw) her ex calls and says hes on his way. She tells me she'll get rid of him and has me drive down the street. I waited and waited then I saw his car drive off with my ex and her friend in the car. I just left, then I found out she fucked her ex in my apartment when they took her friend home. I didn't realize it was actually emotional abuse till years later. It's been several years, and I've dated a couple girls but nothing serious. This girl destroyed my self esteem, destroyed my trust in women, and made me feel absolutely worthless. She's married now to that "ex" and they have a couple kids. I'm in a job I love, have a few great friends, but am still terrified to attempt another relationship.