so you want a best/true friend. gotchya. Sometimes when youre in a hole like this you gotta have the courage to fuck up many times to get that one golden prize. accept that you will fuck up because EVERYONE fucks up. Just people handle the fuck ups very differently. Some people stop trying cause they dont wanna screw up again, some people just shrug it off and move onto the next. In youre case i can understand youre sick of it and probably wanna just stop trying. I will say a key factor in my friendships is confidence. If theyre respectable people and got confidence then they can be a friend of mine. i got one buddy whos got a really really low self esteem cause hes never had a gf and all that stuff. but we all mess with him a little bit he never has a comeback to say. then we always tell him to make fun of us or mess with us back. weird yes but were trying to get his confidence up