1. Officially out. Although I never got baptized to my parents horror.
2. Heh. I'm a woman so noooooo.
3. Emotional stuff really. I mean I have now read a lot about church history but that is something I did much later on. The book of abraham was a problem though. As a kid I was really interested about ancient Egypt and I got this great history book Egypt from my uncle when I was nine. Because of that I recognized Osiris, Isis and so on from the facsimilies and figured that Joseph Smith didn't know what he was doing. I told my parents about it and they said I shouldn't trust what enemies of the church say. After I told the information was from the history book my uncle gave me we they pretty much refused to talk about it anymore. Just said that we can't always understand these things but we must have faith that the church is true. To me that wasn't enough.

Where I'm from you don't really come across “anti-mormon” stuff because nobody knows the church even exists. For years I just went along with my family and I knew how to say the church is true but I didn't really buy it. As a teenager any sort of fragments of faith in the church were gone. That was because nothing made sense. I didn't feel the plan of salvation was just. I couldn't believe that god answered us and let all of Finland and world pray in vain without correcting them. I mean I knew so many wonderful people and I just couldn't see any justice or love in the whole thing. We were just following weird rules, these outward sings of obedience to the church without them really telling anything about the character of a person. But that's how righteousness was determined. You could spend your entire life helping others but if you drank coffee you weren't following gods will. To me that was the biggest thing. If god would actually separate families for believing in the wrong god etc. there was no justice. He could guide them to the right direction but he does not and chooses to punish them for eternity instead. That's why I was out. 4. Finland