Can you help me lol. I’m now 24 but have been thinking about a traumatic event in my early teens and don’t know how to define it. Long story short, I was barely 14 and had a few sexual encounters with a guy who was one week from being 18. Our school had all the grades together but I was in 8th grade, he was a senior. I was dealing with depression, an ED, a self harm, which he knew about. We went to a Christian school and were both expelled after I told friend. After years of dealing with the school trauma, I think I’m Just now coming to terms that the whole situation was traumatic. The whole purity culture was a big deal and being expelled caused issues with family and friends. I feel like I was taken advantage of but also struggle with it being a mutual decision and I was just being dumb.

This was also a year after I, 13, was in a “relationship” with a 18 year old senior who had graduated but that ended when I didn’t send pictures. That situation seems way more cut and dry on how inappropriate it was but the second one feels more complex.

Anyways, I feel silly asking for your perspective but it’s just been on my mind and I don’t really know how to go about processing everything.