So walk me through this...

First off, he hit you (which is not ok), and you've filed for a protection order, despite saying it's in the best interest to seek couples therapy.

Secondly, you got pregnant from a failed BC. This is a blessing then, a new life coming into the world... as an abandoned child myself, what you say about being a parasite is completely wrong, hurtful, and colors my opinion of you. Should you keep this child, I hope for all the good in the world you realize how wrong your thinking is.

We are both philosophically child free

Third, you committed to having an abortion if you did get pregnant, why did this change then?

In my 35 years, often using the same kind of birth control

Fourth, I'm not sure, but isn't switching around BCs... risky? What was the reasoning of the change here?

I can't ask the advice of the one person who matters.

Fifth, you can ask that the order be lifted, if you're the offended party, no? Find this out, and start repairing your relationship.

Sixth, your story make it seem like his family has alienated you, where is your family during all this?

Lastly, find a therapist. I know those hormones push and sway you, but having a third party brain to bounce off idea will do wonders for your state of mind and being.