Join the club bud, my live has been a really long funking ride so far. Most my love once are dead mom when I was 6 grand dad when I was 20 nan when I was 21 dad when I was 23. My last relationship ended 2 months ago because I ended up falling in love with my girlfriends sister and I told my girlfriend and now I will never see either again. I tried killing myself 4 times last year was in hospital a few times. Now I'm emotionally broken and just spend my days in my apartment smoking weed. So give me some insight into whats going on with you if you want to. To be honest I'm on this site right now because I'm trying to stop myself from having a breakdown from not talking to people