Reading a lot of what is in this thread has made me feel like maybe I have too have issues because of shit like this happening to me. I’ve never viewed it as rape. I’ve always thought my trust issues, insecurity, hyper-sexualization, and overall anxiety of meeting, talking, and trusting women were because my high school girlfriend cheated on me. But I had a lot of those issues before her. I don’t have an exact moment or situation I can pin point like everyone else because it’s happened to me more than once but I’ve been this way from a very young age. So maybe I’m just fucked up or maybe something happened and I can’t remember. The worst part is this isn’t the first time I question if something may have happened to me. I just think it must be a repressed memory that makes me feel these things but not knowing wtf happened or if it even did happen is what kills me.