I had a dead inbox last week - I was feeling particularly bothered by it because I've been online a few times and I always have a lot of potentials going on. Somehow, I automatically assumed that maybe it was my weight gain, but I've dated guys at my highest and lowest weights and never had an issue. I had messaged a few guys I thought were exceptionally cute - but I never received a response, so I deleted my profile. I was feeling super fucking frustrated at things.

Needless to say - that depressed the shit out of me. I thought things were fucked on my end, and I'd already contacted the guys that I thought were particularly cute - I have a very specific type and I thought that I'd dried out the resources, essentially.

Made another profile recently and have messages from actual good matches coming out of the woodwork - to the point that I'm overwhelmed, some from the very guys that I'd messaged before. I've been messaging the ones I like and they usually respond, very positively! I have a few dates planned this week from guys that I am super attracted to. I'm just glad I kept some faith in myself.

It's a huge relief to know that sometimes it's not actually you, just the presentation or the moment - I am really glad I tried things again and didn't just automatically dive into the pit of despair forever. We'll see how shit goes now though, the process is taxing on me.