Battles may be lost, but I will never give up.

I really like this line. Back in about April I started a streak that reached about 70 days, then relapsed one night. Here's the thing though, I didn't actually relapsed; I opened a porn video and closed it less than 2 minutes later. I didn't know whether I should reset or not. I've read a lot of posts on here and over at /r/pornfree where users write "I opened a porno but then closed it- the XX day streak goes on!" I'm being hard on myself, and I decided to count as a relapse what some other people wouldn't.

So since I finally decided to reset after pondering over it for an hour, I told myself, "I'm resetting anyway, might as well get a fap in before the night ends," and just like that, everything went down hill. I managed to make it a few days before realizing how low my new streak was and decided to do it again, before my streak got big. I managed to make it to 30 days once, but then lost it again. For about two months now I have only gone a few days and then told myself that my streak is still low, so get one more in.

As you say, "Battles may be lost, but I will never give up." I may have stumbled, but those low streak should not have deterred me, and it no longer does. Everyday is part of the war, and I have one the last 3 days- I was beat 4 days ago, but I have a 3:1 kd ratio from 4 days ago until today. If I start that at April, I could have a nearly 130:1 ratio, where 1 is that time I fell, but since I kept seeing how the streak was, I lost more days than I should have, and now it's probably closer to something like 90:20 or 90:30.

The war lasts until the day you die. You never win the war against fapping. If you relapse, you haven't lost the war, just the battle for that day.