Haha we are getting married soon, so yes, pretty much married. Weed is not the factor and this is not a weed vs relationship question. Problem is that she pressures me in to bettering my self, while stopping bettering herself at the same time. We have a lot of loans, cars, liquidity and properties together. So it is not as cut throat as you think.

I love her but I need to keep my mental health in check as well. Feeling pressured is worse than not smoking weed imo. So smoking weed is just a tip of the iceberg situation, im doing so many things for her. F. ex. She demands that I skip school so she dont have to do some things and this happens all the time. We've spent years remodeling and building houses together.

We've known each other since we were 12 years old man. That is a long ass time for 2 people to be in touch.

Im just tired of borderline abuse and being neglected and not valued last few months. But I feel like this is a solvable problem. Maybe I just needed to vent. But seriously, dont you ever give anyone this advice again man. Weed is just weed, it is like saying "you just got to choose, you want coffee in the morning or keep this relationship ?" Or "dark chocolate and red wine in evenings or continue this relationship ?" Why are you so easy to give up something you spent this much time building ?

Couples counseling it is I guess. I'm feeling pretty suicidal though, will probably just delete this thread later. Really emotional, insomnia and crying is not a good look for anyone.