The part that believed in fairy tales is gone now. I'm just trying to at least one freaking peaceful thought that I can die with. And I guess I can be completely candid since tomorrows the date. This is make me feel so free already. The fairy tale was reaching for a fairy tale in my past. This is where a lot of my family and most of society would not understand. My fairy tale is the love of my life. Mon Soleil. The women I was with for the 2 fairy tale years almost. But she was married when we met. With kids. But she despised her spouse. Their marriage is just being held together for the kids at this point. We worked together because the gods at be just decided to give me a gift oh so great. We are the perfect match. We both agreed with this. A fairy take romance story. I still have 2 tickets from the christmas day movie we went to see. After that, we sat in the car and stared into each others eyes until she ask if I as going to kiss her. The point is we try to label us just staying friends but that didn't really work out. We broke up once but she missed me bad enough and came back. And we a least tried to have a friendship again but it got a bit serious it was too hard for me. So without saying anything she just stopped responding to me. Like with no warning whatsofever. No talking about it to me to see if it could work...nope just notihing. She's running from me. SHe loves me incredibly. but I was never ready to start a family.. Now I am. We both told each other we are our perfect matches. It's been almost 2 years of no contact and she just running from me. No matter if I try she doesn't even take a second to consider. I don't know what she's so afraid of. I have to go smoke with a friend, brb