I was the cheater. She found out because I told her. I told her I was unfaithful. Now mind you, I’m 17 years old. This happened after my brother had recently passed and I thought I no longer wanted to be with this girl. So I was already going through a rollercoaster of emotions. I didn’t know what I wanted. Then this other girl came along and just made me feel... different. We made out a few times. Then I finally got her in my bed. She wanted to “do stuff.” But I wasn’t having none of that. I texted the girl I knew I was in love with. I told her I didn’t know what’s gotten into me. I didn’t understand why I gave up such a good girl for a day of happiness.

She’s still with me. I’m so fucking thankful for her but I’m still a fuck up. I try to make it up to her everyday but I’m still trying to sort out my emotions from my brother passing. Life is hard. And it really really sucks. But I have her and that’s all I care about.