According to him the sister who is 4 years older than me emotionally damaged by the time he appeared and he wanted to be like a father to her as well and nurture her back to (mental) health. He describes her as calm and cute back then with a need to be close. He said that my 7 years old sister was allowed to beat her as much as she wanted before he came and steered things up. Then when they divorced when I was 6 my 4 years older sister became aggressive and started to beat and do other things to me to control me. I spent most of the time locked up in my room and I often had to run and hide under furniture when she was around. She stopped taking shit with age and smashed our oldest sister in the head with a ketchup bottle in the head. She was alright, but I had to clean up with them.

My childhood became a disaster when another husband appeared who was abusive, everyone clinged on to him and didn't stand up for me. My father became mentally ill and threatened me with violence etc. He was suspecious and bitter towards me. Yelled to me out of nowhere that I was only using him for his money and didn't love him when I wasn't spoiled at all and I had told him many times that I appreciated him very much. He told me that I was useless. I ended up in foster care and my siblings ran to him emmediately and started calling him dad etc after having told me for years how horrible he was.