I'm at a difficult point where I need help and don't have anyone to turn to. My former partner, friends, therapists, and so on have advised me to avoid my family. I do, for the most part. I care too much about them to cut them out completely; I just keep my life private from them, and live in a different state, and barely speak to them. The problem is that I'm disabled and I recently got out of an abusive long-term relationship(after he cheated on me, left me for that woman) and I'm now stranded in a state where I know no one/do not want to be. I desperately want to move back to the place where I called home(after I left the place where I was born/family lives) and I have absolutely no friends or anyone who can help me.

I'm considering asking my family. I'm considering telling them about the abuse I hid from them. I'm considering telling them how hurt and broken I feel after losing what I left home for(the relationship), in the manner in which I lost it(he cheated). But it will probably hurt even more to hear their responses(blame, criticism, denial), and I doubt they could even afford to help me. I'm just desperate. I want to keep my distance and be independent, but it's very difficult due to the nature of my disabilities. And my desire for emotional support from the humans who are called "mom," "dad," and "sister." Despite the fact that they physically & emotionally abused me as well..