I had a massive breakdown last year where I lost my job, I hadn't told any of my family because how do you? I was ashamed of myself, having spent most of last year wanting to die because bad mental health was telling me I was worthless.

I had also just got back in contact with a childhood friend at the same time. I was naive, thinking someone actually wanted to hang out with me so I drove her places and just generally helped her out with any troubles. She outed all of my shit to my brother, and then he went on to tell the whole family. It only occurred to me weeks later that she used me.

The first time we fell out of contact (when we were younger) it broke my heart, but this time round just destroyed me. This was earlier this year and even though I'm at a new job now I find myself keeping people at arm's length because I don't want to trust anyone anymore, it's just easier.