I am so tired of other liberal professors seemingly randomly choosing things we are all supposed to be upset about, and if we are not attacking each other publically for it.

First it was hoodies. Because it is dangerous for black people to wear them, it was decided any white people with pictures of hoodies on were persona non grata, and summarily those pictures were attacked and we were told we didn't deserve to be leading young minds.

Then it was braids. All braiding is racist. No braiding is not racist. White people should never have braids, and if your mother braided your hair as a child, you should apologize. Like it's my freaking fault that my mom did something to my hair I had no choice about. I have absolutely no idea how to braid my hair and have never done so.

The latest is Beauty and the Beast. I made the mistake of sharing the link to the trailer, and now am told that I am misogynistic and don't deserve my job, again. Earlier in the term somebody actually emailed my boss because it was believed I had eaten at Chick Fil A. I had not, though I had gotten some of their sauce from the school cafeteria.

I'm EXHAUSTED. I feel like I have to second guess everything I wear, see, or do, and that if I don't I will be attacked endlessly by people who I honestly think are mostly doing good work (at least their published work). These are people I used to want to work with, and now I just want to go hide somewhere where they can't see that I still own hoodies even though I will NEVER let a picture of me in one be published anywhere. I feel like we are hung up on little things and are attacking one another rather than spending any time working on real issues that affect women and people of color. Or maybe I'm wrong and people of color do think it's an affront whenever they see a white woman who has braided her daughter's hair (one very white styled braid, not cornrows or anything).

And yet I feel like a terrible person who is like the old grandma who still uses the n-word. :(