I was declared dead in an ambulance after a severe car accident, my heart had stopped for about 2 minutes. I can vividly remember exactly what it was like to go.

In the beginning my fingers started to go numb, at first in the pins and needles sense and then I couldn't feel them at all. I remember touching them with my thumbs and thinking about how weird it was.

My vision blured and would go in and out of blackness. I coughed out a "thank you" and for some reason an "I'm sorry" to the person who was working on me in the ambulance. I could actually feel my heartbeat going.

I closed my eyes and I thought about my Mom (I was 21 and still lived with her.) The accident was at the corner of a friends work, whom I was picking up. She had made it to the scene literally as I was being loaded into the ambulance. She yelled out "I love you, *****," I wasn't able to reply.

My body started to feel really light, and I tried to touch my thumbs to my fingers again but my hands wouldn't move. My final though was "I wish I had replied."

Being defibrillated is a total sensory overload. Its like kicked in the chest, it tastes and smells like metal, it's bright, and you hear an enormous boom as it happens to you. I had 4 shots of Epinephrine as soon as my heartbeat started again. The guy in the ambulance was literally crying because I had apologized to him before I went.

It's an experience that I don't recommend.