Yeah. Maybe a therapist is best. I feel like I probably have some shit that needs to be diagnosed but I am also afraid to find out what it is. Ever found a weird spot on you rskin and you're like "Shit. That could be cancer. mayeb it's the start of a plague. Could just fucking be dirt."

Yeahh.. She's suspected alright.. I try not to acknowledge it becaus it make smy brain vomit inside of my skull to think about. made a post to /raisedbynarcissists a while back. But I took it down. I'm not fucking prepared to deal with that on my own yet. Especially sicne I now know children of narcissists often become them. So now I'm just fucking policing myself. And I'm still trying to hang out. I like CHristmas and shit and I have younger siblings. I haven't read these articles yet but I'm gonna. i'm a bit afraid to lol. Ridiculous, right?