As someone in my mid 30s with a complex set of chronic illnesses that have yet to be cured or even controlled, you just spelled out my biggest fears. I was healthy and abled bodied when we got married...I got sick abruptly and now walk with a cane and a walker. We've started talking about buying a wheelchair because it's trending that way. I have been in the hospital three times already this year.

My husband and family are exhausted. I can feel it and it breaks my heart. I'm convinced everyone would be better off without me. Happier, less exhausted, more resources. Everyone pretends like that isn't true to my face, but I guess your post here just says the truth of it all: people like me are just a burden our loved ones, despite how much we all love each other. I appreciate your candor. Although I always wanted to be a mother, I am thankful now that we were never able to carry full term...at least I won't have children who view me as something to be free from when I'm gone.