Hi there.

It sounds like you have been through a lot in your young life. I read your whole post, and some of your post history to get a bit more information.

Have you received any counseling for the sexual assaults that happened to you? I mean from a sexual assault counselor? If not, I think it could be helpful for you to contact a local sexual assault center in your area. Or alternatively if you ever feel comfortable, or feel the need during a crisis, to call a sexual assault crisis hotline.

Your situation has a lot of different components to it, and it is certainly not surprising you feel so overwhelmed and tired. Unfortunately with sexual assault, it is not uncommon at all for current or potential mental health / physical illnesses to be exacerbated or triggered. The trauma from being assaulted can sort of causes an avalanche of crap.

I think you may have PTSD. Have you spoken to a doctor about PTSD? I am thinking this based on you saying that you cry when you attempt to engage in some sexual activities with your partner. I am happy to hear he is at least supportive of you when this happens :(

PTSD is caused by severe trauma. It shakes one's belief systems about their world. Safety, trust, control, autonomy, etc are all shaken up. Just understand that your REACTION to your assaults is NORMAL. It is a normal response to a completely ABNORMAL event that happened.

I think part of the reason you are sleeping a lot, is all of the drugs you are taking. This does not mean to stop taking them, but, you should talk to your Dr about the side effects. I was on quite a few pills some years ago, anti psych/SSRI/ anti anxiety, and they made me sleep about 12 hours a day.