anyone else debating on never having kids bc of your mental illnesses?

Its not a debate. I have exercised my right to choose and I am scheduled for a tubal next year. I cant work and support myself, and I have never had a romantic relationship last longer than a year. I am 33. Thats it. Poof. Am I torn up about it? I know I cant handle the pressure and surprises that come with children. I am sad that my life is destined to be even more lonely, that I never had and never will have a family, that growing old will be even more terrifying without someone to care for me besides the government. But those are the cards I was dealt, and I am not bringing a human into the world because of my existential lonliness and fear.

/r/BPD Thread