She did give some reasons, but none seemed serious enough to end a relationship. She broke it off with her most recent ex over a year ago (he had substance abuse issues), and she maintained a fairly normal routine until ‘she let herself go’ in October. Instead of doing meal prep she’d go to a bar with friends, stay up to late, drink too much, eat unhealthy, ignore a professional test she needed to take this coming fall, etc. She’s prioritizing those things again and has decided she can’t ‘fix herself’ while in a relationship.

I could understand her need to be alone to figure herself out, but they all seem like simple fixes- ones that might quite possibly be motivated by being in a relationship. Maybe I’m grasping at straws though. Maybe there’s more under the surface she never told me, but she’s been extremely open about everything (until the breakup) so I don’t have a reason to believe there is.

I will talk to her about it eventually, I’m just trying to respect NC for now. I honestly hope she tells me it’s a character flaw I have- at least I can swallow that. She told me she’d miss me, started crying, and told me she hopes she’s not making a mistake.