Honestly this couldn't have been said any better. The person isn't empathizing.
In any case though, what I say won't really be affecting because from everything I've read here seems like another duplicate of myself in terms of majority of the things written in the main post and how you've tried things and simply did not enjoy them/have a passion in it as have I, but my only question here is how you choose to value yourself.
I saved a snippet of this text because it was rather interesting to me.
When I do think about it though, humans do seem to be...simple. I mean, think about it. We're just an organism. We try to survive, reproduce and rinse, wash, repeat. There's nothing really in-depth about us. In the universe, we're tiny. We're on a tiny rock, orbiting a star millions of times greater than Earth, that's orbiting a black hole orbiting other things so big, we'll never experience them.
We are insignificant. Even on this tiny rock with tiny people, I doubt I'll touch the lives of millions of people. Even the President of the United States will be forgotten as time goes on. On the other hand, there are people who I've put effort into talking to and vice versa. I think I'm significant to them. They sure are significant to me.
I've chosen to make them significant to me. Really, in how great the universe is, these small, puny, meaningless humans are significant to me. In how repetitive life is, I've chosen to say that these people make my life valuable.
I used to be depressed when I was 10, all the way til I was 17. Because of that, I value my life based on my emotions. I don't base it on sex, alcohol, or any luxury. Nature might've intended for me to think about reproducing, but it's not what I've chosen to value my life on.
Other people choose different things to measure the value of their life. Steve Jobs wanted technology. Barack Obama wanted to influence the world. Doctors help the sick. Basketball players play basketball. Bartenders serve drinks. There's really no universal goal of life because so many people choose different ways to give their life meaning.
Often times, we wonder if there's a meaning to life. I don't think there is. We're just here as much as the sky is blue and guitars are instruments. Really, people decide to give their life value. They think, "This is what I'm going to do with my life," and whatever they choose, they try their hardest because our lives are insignificant to the Sun, the galaxy, the future a billion years from now, but it's significant to now.
Life really is so much like a game. You can choose to play in sandbox mode, goalless and free. You can choose to play an RPG where you set the goals, what's meaningful, what progress is. To be honest, even sandbox games, like The Sims, are played with some goal. It might not be strictly defined, but that gives the player the choice to choose the goal. You can choose to build a big house, start a family, have any job you want, build a million pools, etc. The only way to lose is to say to yourself you did.
That's awesome. You can't lose in life unless you say so.
But in regards to what you currently see; a point to nothing. There are a lot of people in this boat I suppose, but I feel as if they choose to avoid it, but that could be just me since I don't want to grind wages either and I don't feel the need for money considering that within the past couple months I've given over $2,000 and even now to this day I don't seem to have any self gratification in helping others or seeing them happy.
Lastly, in thought of attempting suicide and being sure you wouldn't fail it if you were do it is because you're high functioning, at least that's what I'd like to think since I'm like that a bit too. I know I can do it and I wonder to myself why others do it not because of the suffering they're going through but if they're more emotional than I am in the sense of being impulsive. I'm actually surprised I haven't and not even sure of the reasoning why I haven't considering my passion has been dead to me for the past 3-4 years. Matter of fact, not even sure why I posted, but this has been one of the most intriguing posts I've seen in a while since it just gave me a lot of deja vu of myself.