Yeah I started looking for help when I was 13 my parents told me I was faking it and lying so when I turned 18 that was the first thing I did. It was way too late at that point. I still struggle every day what’s real and what’s “just in my head” when I ask for help I’m berated for not trying hard enough and not doing things right by some technicality that can only be measured up to feelings and then when it’s too late you’re told “well you should have nyah nyah nyah” thanks captain hindsight not that I didn’t do exactly all those fucking things. “Duh why can’t you just do that stuff already in the past?” Because you fucking stopped me!!!