It’s ok to be sad and it’s ok to hope he’ll change his mind! Something that has worked for me in the past is writing a letter. I will write a letter to whomever has skits ended things with me and I won’t send it. Then a few days later (or even the next day) I’ll write a new draft of the letter. This just helps me process my feelings. I don’t send any letter unless my feelings remain unchanged after two weeks (I have never sent a letter). It helps me process and grieve. This guy not wanting to be long distance opens the door up for someone even better for you. I know that’s not very helpful in the moment. But try to remember you’ll get through this and that you are a strong individual, and that it’s ok to let yourself feel your emotions!