Look man, if things suck right now they suck.

If someone tries to tell you you're wrong, tell them to go fuck themselves.

Between you and me, and everyone else who reads this, we all understand at this fleeting moment that you are in "the shit." We have probably all been there in form or another. Sometimes we bring ourselves there, sometimes people take us there, and sometimes we meet in between, but shit is shit, it sucks because it sucks and you aren't wrong to hate yourself or hate me or hate anyone else for that matter. It's how you feel and you didn't make that happen.

You didn't make you hate yourself.

Now not knowing you I can't just sit here and say, you're without blame for anything, because obviously you could be a serial killer or a televangelist or some other true sociopath who should hate himself.

But unless you are one of those things, you shouldn't expect us to hate you because you hate yourself. We don't know what has brought you here but whatever it is, it seems far more likely that something or someone took you from a place of vulnerability to the shit and they probably don't even know what they did.

I can tell you about my life and where I was at 21, what kinds of problems I have today, and what kinds of good things have happened to me. PM me if you want to chat. But I can also tell you about how I always deal with this problem of living up to others' expectations. I don't deal with it really healthily at all, but I've learned to do a minimum to show you're trying and move the needle.

One more thing - partying and going out. There is life you turn 25, 26, 27, whatever. I am 27 and I think I am just as young minded as I was five years ago, just a bit less stupid. I go out, I don't let it jeopardize keeping a roof over my head or staying out of jail or hanging out with dbags or whatever. Going out is so overrated that you will, I PROMISE YOU, look back on it in five years and say, I am so glad I stopped caring about that so much. I promise you, you will.