Bro I’m not gonna lie. And this is gonna hurt so stop reading if your sensitive to criticism.

You sound exactly like me, only difference is I’m self aware enough to know that I’m bullshitting. “I don’t have talent” is not an excuse because frankly a lot of people just work hard and get it. Instead of spending 4-6 hours of my time to actually practice I spent it fucking around with what I know already and what I’m comfortable with. That’s not what practice is. Practice is doing something new and failing at it. Then doing it again and doing it a tiinnnyyy bit better. You need CONSISTENCY. It’s Key. The one thing I noticed about everyone I’ve met in the industry is that you need confidence in your music and yourself. Even people that suck ass have confidence in themselves. Some of them even understand they aren’t the best but they do see shit in black and white. They know they lie somewhere in the spectrum of good and bad and at the very least are making money off it.

I would consider you in the good side of the spectrum. Keep working at it. Understand that the growth is very slow. There are many times will growth will stop and you have to figure out how to challenge yourself to keep growing. Something that helped me out is actually meeting people in real Life that make music. Having to suffer through someone else’s work flow and not being able to control it was very eye opening to me. Especially when the end result sounds better than mine.

Overall though, you have to get rid of the attitude and the mind set you are in. Your subconsciously not letting your self grow.

I say all this cuz i hate myself and I hate my music. And I know I’m stopping myself with my dumbass attitude.