Because Ive liked very few girls in my life. Like very few. I can't describe it but I just get this feeling when I see a girl that I like for the first time. But it never works out for one reason or the other. I'm getting into my twenties now, still a virgin. Trying to find a girl to share myself with fully. But most girls are into just hooking up. I recently found a girl I'm crazy about but through very serious talks found out she's slept with guys much older (she's younger than me) and quite a few and has dabbled in drugs. I've never done drugs, don't party, virigin, don't even drink. So it's like do I accept her past? Can i? It's been too hard. I'm the kind of guy that gets sick to my stomach all day imaging all the guys she's been with. I realize I have severe hang ups about sex, but it's an intimate thing to me you share with someone you love. So as much as I like her I think I'll have to turn her down, I basically already have and she understands. We just differ on values is all. It's really a bummer, first girl I've liked in a long time too. She keeps talking to me like nothings wrong too which makes it worse. Almost wish she'd stop talking to me altogether because it's getting even more painful than it has been. Oh well.