dude! i thought the same thing at 20. now im 24. theres good times and bad times. at 20 you have your whole life ahead of you. but remember, everyone fails, its how we learn, if people deny their failures they are lying.

when i was 20 i officially moved out on my own, like not in school, no support from the parents, working, appartment, pets girls, it was all good. then i realized it was kind of a phase, i was actually really lonely no friends, so i threw myself into my work, im a chef, cook, whatever you want to call it. and i got really good, but there was still emptyness, and i filled that will drugs, alcohol, girls i shouldnt be with, ive always held myself to a lower standard than i should.

i am done with the girls i shouldnt be with, figured that out. drugs/alcohol kind of come and go. the lonliness stays though. its a hard hole to fill. its hard to find good people in the digital age. hard to find real connections. im still looking to be honest. but you have to keep going. weather you belive it or not there are people out there that like you, and enjoy your company, you may not feel the connection, its not easy for people like us, but if you do it for them, it makes it easier to get by. fake it till you make it