It was great. She became infactuated with me. Being at a party I would catch her staring multiple times. When she came to talk she would unleash her whole life details onto me in a petty attempt to connect.

I felt bad for her because I wanted her to move on with someone else so I could get over her bettrr. She broke up with me and it was bitter, hard for me to forgive/think of her in the same way after how she handled it. I was not a grade-A bf either we were young - 18.

To be honest, years went by, she stopped seeing her rebound and I had a window to get back in. She was much sweeter, honest etc. I just couldn't bring myself to allow it. I was hesitant to make a move even with her in my bed...

I had mixed feelings when she got with another guy who I admit is much more togethet than I am. Felt like I missed out on a good chance or the love of my life lol

But I just know we had a huge emotional toll on eachother and one slip up from one of us could really hurt the other. We both came from difficult households so we matured a bit later. I hate to say it but I broke contact and didn't take a chance with her again because I love her in a way. I want her to be happy and I wasn't the source. I'm still trying to find my happiness but I know she isn't the source, it was sadly lust not love for me.

Maybe when we're old and gray we'll find eachother again ;)