So, I've been subbed here for a long time but I've never responded until now. This one hit close to home in a way that I didn't expect. I'm literally in the same boat, 2400 miles to move after some shitty events that I didn't expect to have to deal with.

The only thing I can think of to tell you is that you can't change what happens to you. You can only change how you deal with it. As a guy going through the same things that you're feeling right now; all I can tell you is that I hope you realize that this isn't the end of the world. You may feel alone and empty right now but that's a feeling that will pass. I say this from the bottom of my heart, you will move on.

Dropping out of a school isn't the end of the world. Just about every school will reaccept you if you explain the circumstances. I'm pushing up 30 years old and still a student, after dropping out and returning I can tell you from the bottom of my heart that nothing is as bad as you think it is.

If you want to PM me you're more than welcome. This was really hard to type out so I hope that you take it to heart.