This hit close to home. I am in the same not as you. It’s been 2 years since DD and I think I’ve just reached my limit. I tried, and thought for the longest time that maybe I just need more time. It’s been two years since the affair, and not a day goes by without me having some type of negative thought about it. My partner cheated on me a handful of times. She’s been doing everything right since, but that doesn’t change what was done. We’re finally in therapy now, and therapy is really opening my eyes. Why are you still with her if you’ve already filed for divorce? My therapist asked me why, after the cheating I allowed my ex to move in with me after I moved out. She brought up some very valid points.