I'm really sorry it didn't work out between you and A.

I've been reading your letters for over 5 months maybe more and have commented many times under different usernames for several reasons. One of them is your username. I love music and if it ever "died" I honestly don't know what I would do but I get the analogy too and it's something I'd say as I love analogies. Another reason is bc I love your writing style. It's so easy to read - almost as if I wrote it or as if you're having a conversation with the person. And lastly, it's bc your story resonates with mine. I'm currently in a situation where I wish things went a different way with somebody. I wish it could be fixed but it seems it will never happen. I've very understanding and admit my faults so in my case I'd apologize if I was wrong and I was and so was she. I'd even get get on my hands and knees to win her friendship back but I feel I'll never get a chance to.

It honestly feels like the "freindship that got away".

Many reading your letters resonate so much bc we all have a past lover or freindship we wish worked out or didn't end.

Not to defend A but if he wasn't the ring leader or the one who said all these mean things about you I don't think you should blacklist him from your life. Are you positive he is even close friends with the others? From what you described his character doesn't fit with the others. Also, is it possible he is only friendly with them bc he has no other friends or maybe he's scared of them too? Maybe I'm reading too much into it and putting myself in his shoes but I'm siding with A only bc I wouldn't want someone to completely count me out as far as being their friend.

Hopefully this is your last & final letter to him and you can finally close this chapter of your life.

Good luck TDTMD!!!

P.S. Sorry for the long reply, I'm just assuming this is your final letter to A.

P.S.S. I still hope you continue writing - maybe on a different topic bc I truly love your writing. <3