I just spent three days in Tuscany with friends, but now I am by myself in Rome and I see all these happy groups of people and I'm so lonely. getting to Tuscany was an adventure in itself. I took two planes, 3 trains, and 2 taxis. My German friend told me to go to a villa, that was about 10 miles outside of Cecina, Italy. It was gorgeous, so much in fact I thought it was the wrong place. Low and behold she wasn't there to greet me, but an older German couple who could speak no English wouldn't let me in. I don't blame them I am a American with a huge beard. So I walked all the way back to down, tried to find wifi since I broke my phone in Iceland, it took me 3 hours! I finally found a McDonald's which was built three months ago, but I didn't have a valid cell number to work. So luckily I used my friend from Germany in my contacts. It worked I got in touch with her, and she sent me a taxi to pick me up. I finally made it there, we drank wine a,l night, had some great private time which I could fucking perform well due to the wine and the stress. Also how I had been dreaming of this moment to happen for a year and half since I meet her in Thailand. That was the best part of my trip, then the next few days she wouldn't believe anything I say, because I see the good in everything so she didn't think I was genuine, she was cold, and distant. Or so I thought. She just was tired of trying to talk English to me, which is understandable so I just hung out with our British friend for the days. The final night, I got way too drunk and made a complete fool of myself, and I quite possibly ruined a friendship. I am not trying to think negatively, because she said I can come see her next week in friedburg once I leave Italy, and she might go to Berlin with me. But currently, I am so bummed out I just want to go home and play with my dog. But the other part of me, says "fuck it, in in Rome!" I shouldn't worry about things, and just go with the flow, and not worry about how I may or may not of screwed up my friendship with my German friend. I still feel like an idiot though. So if anyone is in Rome and wants to hang out, let me know! I will be here to Tuesday.