Girl of my dreams kicked me put out on the streets for good this time. Had a ct scan i dont remember from a drop, from the 7 days i spend homeless. Drank 2-3 fifths a day and lived in the woods. Pissed myself several times. Think i slept with a tranny from a gay site, to get a place to sleep. Beats a guy (i guess)?

Finally forced a cold turkey for 28h to be able to drive 5 hours to my dad, as a 27 yo. Spend the day today cleaning myself, the car, my items up. Went to psych today, forced me put. Huge issue with mental issues and drug treatments here. Will be months till rehab, cause i have to thru the goverment. Savings blown in 1 week. At least sober now, got my old job back tomorrow. (if you are gonna be a fuckup, make yourself very good at your job).

Fuck all of it, all that matters is i lost the love of my life. We had a house with a garden in 3 weeks and plans for kids. It cant be fixed. Im heartbroken. So had better weeks.

I have a pepsi max lime, so at least there is that.