I came here from /r/bestof. I am 20 years old now and I kind of / maybe / probably understand her. At the moment, I am studying and staying at my apartment over the week and I come home on weekends. University in a remote location has pushed me a lot.

It's really hard for me to do all the "Grown up stuff" like paying bills and taking care of the apartment (all my money comes from scholarship). My excucse for not having a job is that the university stuff is too demanding, actually it's a reasonable excuse and pretty much all professors and students agree on that. During winter and summer holidays, I try to be as helpful as possible with the housework and helping relatives. I did everything from gardening to laying down flagstones, so I am helpful, but not doing a paid job.

In school I have always been marked as very intelligent and have a far above average IQ. Honestly I don't give a shit about teachers or other people praising my intelligence.

I went to music school for 10 years, playing classical guitar (actually used a loophole in the system, so I could stay more than 8 years, because well, my teacher was a very good one and since I was so good, he also wanted me to stay longer). I have social anxiety and am introverted, and anyway sometimes I performed every week (My record was 5 times in one week). Even after literally 100s of concerts, I still get so nervous, that I decided to quit performing live solo. I played live once this year and all it did to me was to remind me of why I quit. Now I would only play to people I trust. Playing in a (metal) band on the other hand is not that bad since messing up is not that tragical and alcohol helps with nervousness.

I haven't really made a new friend in the past few years. Oh and by the way I like to play minecraft. Sorry I forgot where I was going with all the text. It's past 1AM right now.