My job is overworking me. How do I find the courage to speak up?

I'm sorry about your experience. I am glad that you think they're invested in me. After a lot of thought, I believe you may be right. The ladder thing isn't actually related to my PTSD. Work in general didn't traumatize me either, but it didn't help and likely made things worse.

 

Tbh, I was abused for a prolonged period of time by different people. I became paranoid and unable to process, and afraid of men. Eventually I became afraid to leave my house and I'd have major panic attacks when I left.

 

I forced myself to go to a psychiatrist, a therapist and a job opening that accepts anyone and everyone, last November. I loved that job and tried really hard to get hired but got let go because my department had too many people. But yeah, I have flashbacks at work, including body flashbacks which are just crazy, I have some left over anxiety and I still have a tendency to dissociate under stress, but overall I'm ok. My biggest problems are lack of sleep/low energy, and the fact that my only remaining support system is now unable to be connected with due to crazy hours. Maybe I could find a new support system, but it's very important to be careful with things like that.

 

I guess I have a few left over things due to fear of people who have power and nasty customers as well, but I could deal with those things if I still had a life out of work and more energy.

 

I have had difficult employers which has made it difficult to speak up, but I'm going to try. I secured a backup job so if things don't work out, I have that. And yeah, I'm happy to have something recent. I had a horrible work history because I was paranoid and not sleeping. I was being abused during that time and just didn't know how to deal with it and let it ruin every job I had. When I've applied to places recently they've said they couldn't contact my old managers (because it was so long ago and retail never holds them long) or just never called me back. Lol so yeah, I am happy that I have something more recent now, and overall I've done a much better job where I am now.

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